Today, while on a walk, I thought that maybe it would be a good idea (for perspective's sake) to formulate either in my head or on paper a list of things that make my soul feel alive. The first thing that came to my mind was, "well, if this is something I'm gonna end up blogging about, then I better have 'reading my Bible, praying, and listening to worship music on the list'". And then my second thought was "well, if you're really striving to be honest and genuine, then you won't put that". Because really, those things don't make my soul feel alive right now. I think being genuine is one of the most important qualities a person can have, and so I strive to always be honest with people and myself. The last year or so has been hard, I haven't hidden that from anyone. Therefore I feel like my faith has been challenged a bit. And by a bit I mean a lot. Right now I'm trying to figure out what I believe in and what kind of person I am supposed to be, or what kind of person I WANT to be. So you could say I've been doing a lot of soul searching lately.
Here's the thing. I think it's ok to be where I'm at right now. Doubting, questioning, dialoging with myself and others about faith and God and Jesus. Most things seem to be a gray area right now and I'm fighting through that to find truth.
So, when I ask myself, "Laura, what things feed your soul right now?" I think I could provide a non-exhaustive list. Here goes.
1. Taking walks
2. Houses in College Hill that remind me of Europe
3. Wild flowers
4. Giggling with my roommates
5. Cooking new foods
6. Traveling
7. Being able to have short conversations with people in German
Wherever you're at right now, remember that the whole of life is a process--making mistakes is a part of the journey. As long as you're never content with your growth, I think you're doing ok.
I encourage those of you who are reading to ask yourself "what feeds my soul? What makes my soul come alive?" Feel free to share if you want!
Be blessed, my friends.
