Sunday, October 5, 2014

Wrinkle Cream

When I'm old, I'm not gonna use wrinkle cream. I'm not gonna try to cover up all those lines across my face that society tells you makes you old and ugly. Because each of those lines tells a story. The wrinkles around my eyes will tell stories of laughter and joy spent with friends and family. The wrinkles across my forehead will tell the stories of pain and heartache that I pushed through. So, no, when I'm older and my wrinkles start to show, I'm not gonna spend hundreds of dollars on wrinkle cream to keep me looking young.


As I've been in this phase for a while now, more than a month, I think people expect me to be fine. People expect me to be fine. People expect me to get over anything that's happened. And at this point, I expect the same thing. So the easiest thing to do is put a smile on my face and act normal. Act like myself again. It's easier to convince people that way and eventually I will be. No, I haven't forgiven someone from my past for hurting me. No, I haven't let go of things that could have been. No, I don't always feel like hanging out with friends like I used to. But yes, I'm trying to be fine and I think that eventually I will be.Right now I think I'm developing more forehead wrinkles than eye wrinkles. But that's ok. Soon I will be creating more eye wrinkles. Life is a series of ups and downs. There will be times of sorrow and times of joy. Reminds me of the passage in Ecclesiastes 3:1-8.

There is a time for everything,
    and a season for every activity under the heavens:
     a time to be born and a time to die,
    a time to plant and a time to uproot,
     a time to kill and a time to heal,
    a time to tear down and a time to build,
     a time to weep and a time to laugh,
    a time to mourn and a time to dance,

    a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,

    a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing,
     a time to search and a time to give up,
    a time to keep and a time to throw away,
     a time to tear and a time to mend,
    a time to be silent and a time to speak,
     a time to love and a time to hate,
    a time for war and a time for peace.